Good Friday and Redemptions

The Chosen TV series released their poster today for Season 6, being released later this fall on November 15th.

This season covers the days from Jesus' arrest to His resurrection. Having been an extra for the show last year made my connection to it even deeper.

I'm both dreading and excited to see the final production.

Maybe that's why this Good Friday is landing more different than any I've ever known.

So much is lost and gained in redemption.

Surrendering when we don’t understand things, to something we can't fully comprehend.

The punishment that brought peace.

It’s all so overwhelming — life, love, loss, the essence of Jesus and the majesty of God. Spirit, eternity, truth.

I'm having a hard time “going there" today.

Ironically, it's one of the days I most want to see and sit with it all. Today is a day I want my heart to be truly open to the depths, travesties and wonder.

Yet, I'm stuck.

Stuck with confusion, sadness, and regret.

Life's challenges and difficulties can really rock you, especially when things go so differently than how we'd hoped or expected.

Today, I'm stuck in my "human-ness."

It's a tug-o-war between where my mind wants to go and where my heart wants and knows it should.

But because of what I've come to know, I know this is normal. I may hate it, but that's part of life - doing what we hate when we know we could do better.

Knowing the truth of my limitations and inabilities has freed me. Realizing how much I cannot do on my own has empowered me.

I am so grateful for this show. The Chosen opened my heart to the real Jesus. I may not know exactly what to do with "all of this" right now. But I know who and where to go to for comfort and peace.

I am beyond humbled, grieved, and profoundly grateful for the sacrifice He made for each of us, for humanity, for the world, for me.

And for you.